I want to tell you about this fantasy. I feel like a dirty, bad girl, but I feel like I’m writing this to you in secret. Like you’re a diary and whatever I write won’t go anywhere, you’re my release.

“Move in next door to me. Please be you who moves in next to me” This is what I’m thinking when I see you carrying boxes into the house next to me. The sale sign next door has been put as sold for some time. The way you shot your eyes to me as you walked up the drive made me feel something, I can’t quite work out what it was, but I can’t stop hoping it’s you. I wander over and shyly ask whether you’re moving in next door, and whether we’re neighbours now. You give me a blunt “yes” and move on to continuing unpacking from the van parked in the drive. I don’t understand, the look you’re giving me is totally different to how you just spoke to me, why did you have eye contact with me for so long when you’re going to be indifferent to me when we speak? Maybe you don’t like me? Was there something on my face?

Well, whatever – it doesn’t matter. Maybe you’re having a bad day. I go inside and watch you unpack from the van.. I can’t help but notice you’re carrying some pretty heavy looking metal stuff inside but I can’t quite work out what it is. I’m kinda curious now, I feel like I’m investigating someone’s who’s going to be so close to me, but I have no idea what you’re like. Oh shit, you see me looking through the window at you as you’re unpacking. I drop to the floor so you can’t see me. But you definitely did. Your eyes quickly locked onto mine. It was like a hold and I couldn’t move. My heart is racing, I slowly crawl away from the window out of the living room. I guess I’ll have to investigate you later, I watch a cute movie and fall asleep pretty early, listening to music in my bed.. I wake up in the morning and sit up quickly, I remembered I have to go to the gym, and I’m late for the slot I booked.

I hastily get ready, not realising that I’m wearing the shortest booty shorts in existence as I walk to the gym, and It’s kinda cold. I’m freezing, it’s a short walk but I can’t wait to get warmed up. I walk into the entrance of the gym and up the first flight of stairs, scan my gym card and rush in.. bang. Straight into your back. “Sorry-“ the words barely leave me mouth as you turn around and I recognise you, I start to stutter, but before a word comes out you put your hand on my shoulder. “It’s okay, don’t I know you? Neighbours right?”. Your voice was warmer today, and so was your touch. “Y-yes”. I can barely force the words out of my mouth, I feel like an idiot. “Thought I recognised you. Well, nice to see you” you say. I don’t know why but I can’t speak. “Thanks, yeah I’m also” – wait.. that doesn’t make sense. I start going red and push past you and make my way into the gym. That’s so embarrassing. I can hear you behind me laugh and I go even more red. You say “hold on” softly, “what’s your name”. “Belle” I reply in a rush as I make my way out of this awkward situation. Thank god, he’s walking the other way. I work my way through my routine with my headphones on, every time I think about the interaction with you I blush.

As I’m leaving the gym, I walk through the car-park and see you getting into your car. “Nope, don’t look” I think as I walk past avoiding eye-contact entirely. I put my headphones in and listen to lo-fi whilst walking back. A car pulls over by the curb ahead. It’s your car, I freeze. I don’t know what to do, but I think just standing here or walking back the other way is just strange. I walk forward slowly, carefully approaching your car… this is stupid. You’re probably just being nice and offering me a lift home, and I’m walking towards you like you’re some kind of wild wolf. I quicken my pace and just as it played in my mind as I walked up, you opened your door. “Hey”, I hear cloudily through my headphones… I take one of my earphones out.. “Can I give you a lift home? Seeing as you live.. well. Right next to me.. and it’s freezing out”.

Before I know it.. I’m getting in the car, like my body just followed your command like I’m some NPC in a video game. I notice my tiny gym-shorts have ridden up my ass and I blush as I pull them down. I think to myself how stupid I am, why didn’t I notice? I can feel his eyes flicker over me, then back to the road. You talk, but I can’t really take in what you say. I feel too anxious, so I just nod in return. I feel your hand brush my leg as you change gears and my mind springs back to reality. “Hey Belle, you’re home” you say in a bright tone. “Oh well, haha, thank you so much for the lift”. I get out and scramble to get indoors, the door opens and I close it behind me and I slink to the floor with my back against the door. I’m wet. Wait, I’m wet? Surely not? I notice a tiny little wet patch on my gym shorts and I put my hands down my panties to check. I’m soaking. What.. why?

I go upstairs and change into lingerie, I wanted to take photos today and that’s what I’m going to do. I slide and bend down and my gym-shorts fall to my ankles. I want to wear something exciting today.. maybe a black frilly g-string with some fish nets? Perfect. I pull them up my legs, nice and snug between my little lips and bend over and look in the mirror. These will be good. I go to the spare room, the lighting is best and it’s raining outside, so no one will see me through the window over-looking the garden. I squat, bend, bounce, pull and push, I tease and I play into my phones lens. I want to play today too, I don’t just want to show. I feel in the mood and I just got a new toy. I carefully record myself sliding my little g-string down to my ankles. I lean forward, back arched and slowly place a finger over my little hole. I’m still wet.. I slowly start making a circular motion as my finger ever so slowly slides into my pink hole.. I’m warming myself up as it goes in and out, each time pulling more moisture onto my finger.. I add another one.. slowly pushing my walls apart. My new toy is big and I want to record how much of a good girl I am. As I press the hard, large dildo against my lips and start to move it up and down I turn around the look at the mirror and see a flicker of a shape through the window. You’re in your garden, and you can see right in. Time stops.

I’m on all fours. My huge toy pressed against my tiny ass. I’m just watching you. You don’t look up. And after about 30 seconds of just waiting, I finally move. I move away from the mirror and onto my bed, my heart beating again. I want to finish recording this. I lay on my back, my ass firmly pushed into the bed and spread my legs looking into the camera, my feet in the air, either side of me, under the fishnets. I push the hard, solid, soaked dildo into my hole. It feels like ecstasy. It’s never felt like this the first time I’ve had anything in me. I’m imaging you in the garden, looking up at me. It’s squeezes to the back of my tight hole as my mouth opens uncontrollably. It feels like I’m orgasming already, I sit up and slap myself to come back to reality. I can’t stop thinking about you.

I’m walking down the stairs. I quickly grab a white tee-shirt and put on my booty shorts that I left at the door. I’m knocking on your door. I feel like I’m compelled. Every second I wait after the knock felt like an eternity. “Fuck you” I say when you finally open the door. I found my words finally. “Fuck you for making me feel like this”. My legs are shaking. I push into you hard, you fall back and I fall onto you. You kiss me. My tongue goes straight into your mouth. You put your hand around my neck and push me back. “Didn’t anyone teach you manners?” You say as you can barely push my lips off of yours. “Then fucking teach me manners” I respond. You look down at my shorts and notice they’re wet. I blush, AGAIN. “Fuck you” I say, AGAIN. Your eyes lock onto mine as I bite my lip, you can see from my eyes just how much is going through my head. You lift me off of you and up, like a tiny little doll. You take my hand with yours and pull me further in. My vision goes black as something cloth like is placed over my head. Every time you pull me forward, another thought pops into my head. It’s silent and like this for about 30 seconds.

You push me down hard and I sit. I can feel a cold wooden chair beneath my ass. I feel my tiny gym shorts being roughly pulled down and I don’t even have the desire to say anything anymore. My mind is settled on how much I actually want this. I shyly cross my legs to hide my tiny g-string but I feel them firmly pushed apart by your hands. You force my arms behind my back and I hear the clicking of metal around them. You can see my tiny little body squirm trying to get free. You quickly whip off my hood, and as my eyes come to.. I finally know what you were carrying into the house. Hard iron locked frames, benches, handcuffs.. I don’t finish looking around before you grab my face and force me to look at you.

“Train me to please you. Train me to please you” I can’t stop this thought playing in my head, what’s wrong with me? You slap me across my face and hold my neck again, you tell me to be a good girl and to open my mouth. You tie a blindfold over my eyes as I follow your command like a slave, no hesitation. My mouth open, tongue out, you can see the saliva pooling over my tongue, starting to drip down to the end. I can’t help it. I’m out of control. I hear the sounds of your belt being undone, then zipper.. your hands roughly grab the back of my hair, my saliva dripping down onto chest as you pull my face towards your underwear, your hard cock underneath pushing into my face. I leave a huge wet-patch as I run my tongue all over. You can feel how warm my saliva is as it drips through your white silky pants onto you.

“it’s.. huge..”

My fantasy diary

My fantasy diary,
I had a naughty dream recently, and it reminded me that I wanted to write more to you about my fantasies, I want you to know how my mind works..

I want one of my two of my guy “friends” to invite me over for dinner and to play board games with them. Before I go out and see them I want to be a little bit of a tease tonight.. I feel like I’m in that mood and I want to see if I can frustrate them ;p

As I’m picking out what underwear I’m going to wear tonight, I think about the possibility of wearing a g-string, I mean.. it might look good underneath my skirt right? Maybe if I wear a really short one? It’s a little bit risky, so what I do instead, I grab my phone and bend over. I take a nice picture of my thicc ass in my black thong and save it on my phone. I continue getting ready, I’ll save this picture for later…

So, my little white frilly panties which say “fuck me?” Hmm.. cute.. and could definitely be used to tease. Perfect. I finish getting ready, a short red plait skirt, a crop top and.. fishnets. Done. I finish doing my make up and take a few teasing pictures before I get ready to leave. One with my finger in my mouth, another pulling down my top and pushing my lil bewbs together.

I knock on the door to their apartment, and I come in. As we’re having dinner, I want to start my little game; tease and frustrate them as much as possible. First, when I’m talking I give as much eye contact as possible, occasionally biting my lip, only quickly. Then, I accidentally brush their feet one by one under the table, each time I do it I do it for just a little longer…

After we finish dinner, we sit down and play some boardgames, I suggest playing monopoly. Big mistake. I start losing really badly, but every time I have to pay them and I don’t have the money, I say that I can give them a present instead. But they can’t check it until after the game. Hehe, I say it’s sweetly with big puppy eyes.. so they accept. Everytime I do have to pay them, I send them photo’s.. getting more lewd each time. Sucking my finger, bent over..

I lose, but I say we should play truth or dare and they can look at their messages. I can see the look of surprise in their eyes when they check. But, neither of them says anything.

They agree to play truth or dare with me. We start off small, but I can see they start asking more sexual questions to me. This is exactly what I wanted, I’ve got them curious. I start slowly lifting my skirt up, everytime they’re not looking so it get’s shorter and shorter. At this point they can see the edge of my panties. On my next go when one of them responds “truth”. I ask them if they’ve ever imagined me naked? He doesn’t reply but I can see from the red expression on his face he has. He say’s “I can’t answer that but I’ll do a dare instead”. I say “grab my ass”.. but… Your friend can’t watch, he has to close his eyes. That’ll frustrate him. I bend over and push my ass into the air. His firm hands grab my ass cheek. Fuck. After all this tension it feels so good. I check to see if his friend has his eyes open but I can see him peak. Good.

The game continues, they keep asking me truth or dare but I know I’ve got them turned on. I keep answering truth. Oh, I tell them the dirtiest things they’ve ever heard. I can see the bulge in their pants. After a while I want to turn up the heat. I say that I want you guys to imagine me as your little toy for tonight, but on one rule. If you dare me to do something to one of you, the one I’m doing it to has to wear a blindfold, and the one watching can’t touch.

First dare: “take off your skirt”. I slowly take down my skirt, pushing my ass towards their face as it falls to my ankles. Okay. My turn. I dare one of them to push their face into my ass. But, remember, the other one must be blindfolded. He slowly pushes his face into my soft, squishy ass and panties. I can see how turned on this made him. I can see how rock hard his bulge it. I flick it and tell him to stop. Fuck, that made me a little bit wet, I’m feeling kinda shy that it might show through my pants now, but I’m so turned on I can’t stop myself. I want to continue the game.

Next dare: “suck on my finger” I slowly push his finger to the back of my throat. He’s blindfolded but the other guy can tell I’m really into it. I suck back and forth, rolling my eyes and looking at the other guy. Yep. He’s rock hard too. I start bouncing while I’m doing it, teasing him while he’s watching even more. “Done”. I can barely hold myself. My pussy is so wet with excitement. The thought of having two guys is running my imagination wild. I dare one of them to look at my photo’s and rub his bulge through his pants. Fuck that’s hot.

Dare three: “Take off your panties” I am a little shocked at how forward this is, but I can’t wait anymore. I want them to be uncontrollably turned on. I just decide to fully go for it. I slide my wet panties down to my feet, bend over so they can see my tight little ass and wet lil pussy. I don’t know why but it’s so uncontrollably wet, I tell them I’m shy and but that I hope they like the view. They’re both touching themselves, I can tell they do.

I dare them to both take off their pants too, and to close their eyes. They both do it without hesitation. I can’t stop now, they’re both so hard and so big. I walk over to the one on the left, I push my soaking wet pussy into his face. I tell both of them to keep their eyes closed. I can feel his tongue find his way quickly around the shape of my tight ass.. it runs over my clit and ever so slightly presses into my little pussy hole. I moan and push his head back and press my ass into his lap while his eyes are closed. I don’t let his cock go in, but I hold it, let it move up down and over my ass and pussy. They’re both soaked. I push it into my pussy to it just slightly goes in and pull away. I can see his hard cock twitch. I turn to the guy on the right and ask if he feels left out, and tell him not to worry because you’re up next. I tease him, I ask him if he liked my moans, and that if he can imagine what I’m going to do to him.

I walk over but I can’t wait anymore.. I push my tight, wet, desired little pussy straight down on my his twitching cock. I moan loudly as his cock stretches and pushes straight to the back. I bounce, hard. Like a slut that hasn’t ever been able to release. I arch my back and pull my ass apart to make it go as deep as physically fucking possible.

I can’t stop. I’m moaning like a little slut and neither of them can keep their blindfolds on anymore. I tell them to fucking own me. To use me like a fucking slave and to fuck me hard. Before I know it I’m pushed down on the floor, my crop top has been ripped off and my panties are in my mouth. My wrists are pushed into the floor and legs apart. One of them is on top of me, so large and so deep just pounding me as I can hear the wet slapping sound.. I’m almost screaming with pleasure. I barely open my mouth as its quickly filled. The muffled moaning as I get spit-roasted only makes me feel more naughty. I’m being used just like I wanted. As soon as I have a breath to speak the only words I can find are “I want more I want more” before I can’t anymore. Muffled moaning as I cum and push the person on tops chest away.

I fall forward pushing him into the floor, I jump on top riding him while my tight pink hole grips his cock. My legs are soaking. I want to feel more. I lean my chest forward pressing my hard nipples into his chest leaving my ass wide open. I feel the tip push into my ass, there is resistance. It’s so tight and so unused. Every inch feels like a mile. I can feel just how hard he is. I feel every twitch against the walls of my tight asshole. I moan so loudly that the guy underneath me puts his hand over my mouth. It’s slowly making it’s way to the back while my pussy deeply and slowly get’s fucked. I can’t handle it. My eyes roll back and he pushes it all the way in. I feel so filled. I’m cumming, the thought of it was so hot and reality is even hotter. The next 5 minutes passes in a second. My holes being used in synchronisation while my legs shake uncontrollably and my hands clench the floor. Before I know it my back arches as I orgasm so strongly I scream. I can feel them pouring into me. Every single twitch, and throb feels like pure ecstasy. It’s over, and I’ve never felt anything like that. I’m left as a sweaty, sticky shivering mess. I loved it.

I hope you enjoyed it, my mind is just as dirty as yours <3 – belle

Dear Diary

Dear Diary,

It’s 4:43 am here and I’m sleepy again, the weather has gone from hot to cold here and I kind of like it.. I get to put blankets around me again when I’m sat here messaging and reading in the evening instead of roasting in the heat ^-^

I’m trying to get my fireplace fixed at the moment because one of my lil hamsters bit through the wire and now it’s not working :< I really miss having a fire that I can sit infant of when I write or watch programmes.. there’s something so comforting about it, feeling the heat and watching the flames. Id love to go out in the summer into the woods with friends and building a lil camp-fire :’)

I love nature but I definitely love going to the city too ;o especially at night.. I love looking out the window down at all the pretty lights. I think that’s what I miss about living in the city the most, the warm streetlight out of my bedroom window, the lights and slight hustle bustle below that’s like background ASMR, there’s a real coziness to it, listening to the world around you move and just being in your own little universe. I remember so many nights when I was browsing the internet looking out the window into those lights, there was this one person who had these crazy neon lights in his apartment that I could see in the distance, every night they’d be a different color.. sometimes red, sometimes purple, pink, blue. I’d look at the apartment nearly every night, wondering what it looked like on the inside and who could’ve lived there.Sometimes I’d think about the color of the light being a reflection of my mood. I went on a bit of a tangent but reminiscing is nice sometimes <3

I’ve been thinking about taking a spontaneous trip away again soon, something about travelling to new places and taking photo’s (yes, for you too <3) has felt really exciting recently – I might take you away very soon. Let’s go somewhere with a view over the city, and pretty lights we can stare at together?

Tell me a memory that makes you feel cozy <3
I’m sending u warm cuddles tonight ^-^

Dear Diary <3

Dear Diary <3

Do you ever have that crazy feeling when you’re looking up and you realise you’re on a ball floating in the middle of space.. kind of like when you freak out and realise the earth is spinning and it makes you feel weird ^-^

I remember when I was a kid I was laying on a trampoline at night with my best friend on a sleepover, and we actually saw a shooting star together, my wish unfortunately never came true unfortunately :< aha.

But hey, what would you wish for? If you couldn’t wish for money or to live forever? I think a fricken awesome one would be being able to turn on and off a “life” soundtrack, so whatever you’re going, you can turn on the music that perfectly fits the moment, whether you’re walking in the woods or drinking coffee in a lil’ coffee shop. Being able to turn it off is also super though important lmao :>

I like writing, I want to write more for you, I want you to get to see me how others dont get to, i want to show you things about me, and talk with you. I want to walk with you, even if we only get to walk on these little pages from time to time.

I want to tell you that my favourite flavour milkshake is oreo, that I love the smell of books, that I day dream of going on a date in a specific little coffee shop in japan, in spring. That I will sit outside next to river and the blossoms will be falling. The air will be cool, but it won’t be cold, the sky will be sunny, and I’ll be in a little red dress. I have so much to tell you. I’m going to go to sleep in my warm blanket by the window tonight.

I hope that wherever you are, you’re feeling some happiness.


Dear Fan Diary <3

Dear Fan Diary <3

The weather here has been rainy!
I’ve been stuck inside working on some mystery items and some shoot idea’s which I’m very excited to show you all,
I can’t wait <3

Last night I fell asleep on the sofa replying to messages on here and watching lost in translation, it’s this film set in Japan with Scarlett Johansson, it has a really nice vibe to it, it’s like.. if lofi was a picture or something <3 can you recommend me some films with the whole “lost vibe” that I can watch tonight in bed? please please <3

I’ve never been to Japan, I’ve always wanted to, I think it’s been my dream since forever.. wandering round the streets late at night, finding all the little bars and coffee shops, sitting under the stars at a temple and just talking the night away. Maybe I can take you there with me? We can go and wander around together, I can flirt with you and you can laugh at my really bad jokes. I’m definitely going to do this <3

Okay so I also have a small confession, ever since this whole lockdown stay inside kinda thing, deliveroo has been killing me. I’ve ordered so much food, especially from this place called GBK, it’s this burger place in the UK and they do the best oreo milkshake in the world, you might not know this about me, but one way to my heart is milkshake! but anyway, someone needs to teach me how to cook like a good waifu, i’ve been struggling :<

okay so, to leave things on a less painful and more fun note, I actually really get off to being a little naughty in public. I planned to be extra-kinky for you this week, I’m going up to London tomorrow and I’m bringing my buttplug with me.. I can’t wait to show you <3

p.s recommend me some “lost” movies to watch tonight.
I hope you’ve been well and I luv u <3